Last year I wrote how Autumn is for mending. This year, as I’ve been doing a lot of introspection and work on my emotional and mental health, I am approaching Autumn with an added perspective. Autumn is the time of the harvest, and once some farmers have brought in their crops they set fire to the stubble to clear it for the next season. I’ve found my thoughts turn to the idea of clearing the landscape as the temperature has dropped.
One insight that I’ve been mulling over this year is that I need to release the bitterness that fuels obsessive thoughts. I can often fall into a pattern of dwelling on past events, replaying memories over and over again with new commentary or coming up with new responses. The exercise is pointless. I can’t go back in time to change things, and more importantly I am not going to get an apology or closure from those who harmed me. Fixating on those past instances only keeps me stuck, unable to let go.
I’ve come to recognize my reluctance to let go of my bitterness because doing so might be construed as exonerating those who harmed me. It has taken me several months to get comfortable with the idea that releasing that rancor doesn’t deny or forgive the harm done to me in the past. It clears the way for more useful thoughts and emotions to grow.
All of these realizations, brought about by introspection and therapy, have been key to discerning the ways I can bring witchcraft into my healing.
I’ve used magick in working on my mental health before. It is helpful in making sense of symptoms that are often nonsensical. Using magick and ritual also gives me a sense of control when often I can feel at the mercy of my brain chemistry and trauma. It is, simply, another tool at my disposal.
With all this in mind, I started my work on the first full moon on the first of October. I know it is a process that won’t be resolved in a night. It took me months, years even, to get to the point where I could name the base issue. Clearing the field and letting go, however, is a good first step.
If you have ideas and emotions that no longer serve you and you want to let go, take a look at the spell below.
Spell for Letting Go
- dried leaves
- marker or pen
- fire proof container
Write what you want to let go: habits, thoughts, emotions, whatever is taking up space in your brain and does you no good.
Burn the leaf, as you do so say, “Thank you, you must go.” Visualize what you are releasing being burnt up in the fire and its energy rising with the smoke then being absorbed by the universe to be used for creative forces.
Alternatively: bury the leaf somewhere wild and away from you; release the leaf in a body of running water so it is carried away from you; stand on a hill and release the leaf to let the wind take it away.